2011

I spent NEW YEAR in China

countdown with the other 8 kids

it was quite memorable..to me...

my parents didn't even bother to stay up to wait for me and my brother==

and well

I started my year really POSITIVELY this year

and it just went on till now..NON-STOP

maybe there were some few 'stops' here and there

but I really did have a more open-mind

I don't feel so sheltered

I felt like I grew quite a lot in the past year

the sudden distance that I got from my 'usual friends' cause ALL of us took a different path

I had to buck up and meet new people

It may not seem that hard to others but to ME

it's sort of 'torturing' ?

during that period of time I literally walk through everyday feeling sorry for myself

which now I feel it was kind of 'OVER'..hehe...

It may not seem relevant to others but...I did Shut myself in my box

{which I'm really glad that I walked out of it}

I was paranoid...ever since I stepped into secondary school

My self-esteem was that LOW

but I doubt anyone really realised cause I tend to hide it well.....XD

I always have issues of doubting myself and comparing myself with others

I was never good enough in anything

AND I'm glad I came out from my old-self

thanks to .......................

I will have a happier life now thanks to you

eventhough you may not know what you have done for me

but I will always rememberXD